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Thoughts of a Full Time Mom

I’m a full time mom, and there are times when it can just get really crazy.  I have two sons with ages 6 and 2, and sometimes my two hands aren’t just enough to handle their demands.  But it’s not always like that though, there are more sweet and really fun moments with them especially when they are both in a good mood.  I am actually happy being just a mom to them at this time because I get to be really hands on with them and I am not missing any milestone in their growing up years, but why then do I find myself being defensive or needing to be one at certain occasions?  Maybe it is because of the fact that there are still people who doesn’t recognize the challenges of being a stay at home mom, and at the same time doesn’t really know the value of one.

Being with your kids 24/7 and doing literally everything on your own with no pay, no break, and no day off can take its toll, but still we go on, and keep doing what we do without really complaining because of our love for our kids, and that is simply it.  We may be always at home, but we don’t really hold our time because we work around the schedules of our husbands and kids, and perhaps the time left for ourselves is very few like this time that I am making this blog.  I only have probably less than two hours before my 2 year old son wakes up from his nap.

And by the way, it is not just the kids we take care of but all the other stuff that involves the home and the family which includes making the budget, paying the bills, planning your kids’ birthday parties and family vacations, and the list can just go on.  I can’t really complain though because I love what I do, but sometimes a little appreciation won’t hurt, or maybe even just some consideration would suffice.

Why then am I writing this piece?  Maybe it is because sometimes I feel that some people just have certain expectations and I just think that it’s not fair.  We all have our own roles to play in this lifetime so I guess, respecting one another’s game is just what should happen.  This is my role for now and I simply want to keep enjoying it while I can.  After all, they grow up so fast.

Most of us may make it look easy, but really, it is not.  Work never seems to be really done, so then in the process we also learn to choose which battles to fight.  But no matter how tough each moment can be, at the end of the day, I only have to look at my kids to remind myself that things will always be okay, and that every experience with them are all worth the while.


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A Time of Unity, Faith and Love

Our country, the Philippines is so blessed to have been given 5 days of the pope’s very precious time.  I was not able to personally go out to see him, but I made sure that I kept a close watch of his activities and public appearances on TV.  Even just by seeing the events on screen, and simply watching all the things that was going on out there was truly a very heartwarming sight.

The multitude of people who were all so looking forward to even just catch a glimpse of the pope even in the midst of an uncooperative weather and drenched in rain, they were all simply there—patiently waiting for the holy one’s arrival.  Over 6 million people came, all with the hope to see God’s messenger.  They didn’t mind whether they would only see him from afar, or if they would ever really see him at all.  They also didn’t mind how fast it would all be if ever the pope passed their way.  It was all an experience that was about faith, and of course love.

All the pope’s messages were so inspiring and meaningful, and each piece of his thought was simply moving as every word came from his heart.  The Filipinos deeply felt the sincerity of his concern for them, in the same way that every Filipino also genuinely welcomed the pope and his blessings.  The pope’s mere presence comforted us and made us feel that we are never alone.  What is even more touching is the thought that we are all one in prayer.  We need him to pray for us, in the same way that he needs us to pray for him.

In all those days that he was here, the pope was able to unite the people and somehow led them home to their faith, and at the same time reminded each one of us about God’s love and mercy.  The pope along with the entire nation was just such a very overwhelming sight.  It was just all so beautiful, and an experience that was simply very poignant.

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Life’s Daily Grind

We often get caught up with our life’s daily grind and somehow we are simply trapped in our personal webs that we do not find time anymore to appreciate the simple things around us.  Those mundane stuff that unconsciously make us feel alive like stopping to smell the flowers, feeling the wind so close to our skin or taking a break to simply see how colors blend and create a perfect picture.

Sometimes the routines, the daily schedules and the never ending must do chores and errands hinder us from just feeling being here.  Then without you knowing it, you suddenly realize that somehow something is missing.  It is like breathing without feeling the air or eating without savoring the food. The everydayness of life sometimes seems so mechanical, and at a certain point you would just snap out and then you find yourself searching for what is real or natural or sometimes even just different.

All of us need to have a day off to unwind, to get our minds off our daily grinds because this is a way for us to keep our own sanity as well.  This can also help us get refreshed so we can once again face our realities without feeling burdened or have that sense of over familiarity of things and obligations. 

I am one of those people who tend be caught up in her own web and I am also one of those who haven’t really had a day off to just be in solitude with myself without worrying about time and just doing the stuff that also matters to me personally.  But one day though, without planning or even knowing it, I just found myself being in that certain moment, not thinking about what’s going to happen next.  Instead, I just found myself looking at the flowers, then at the horizon before me and it simply felt wonderful because I realized that you really do not have to do much, but rather you only need to pause for a while and appreciate the beauty of both nothingness and fullness.